The battle between head and heart, which holds more substance and which will lead you to the truth? Which, if either, will truly lead you to happiness or a gateway to? What if they're telling you the same thing, but your gut, on the other hand, is turning itself inside out trying to decide?
I am Jack's unstable body.
What do I have to lose? Besides the obvious, but people don't seem to realize that it doesn't mean as much to me as it does to them. It's purely a thing, something I've never given that much thought to. My mind focuses on the intangible, something you can't physically touch or see or hear.. the fact that I could hold this over people's heads doesn't make me any different.
People need to realize that I am more than my virginity. I'm more than this physical being.. SO much more. And if you could just look past it.. and see me like you, then you'd realize why I feel the way I do. That if I make a mistake, it's because I'm human. And if I don't, then don't pray on the fact that it should be a mistake.. because that only makes every part of me much worse.
I took a drive tonight with myself, playing Stars and speeding down the express way faster than I should have. I had no destination, I followed my gut, turned wherever it felt right, went as fast as I felt I should, didn't stop where I should have.. and I was okay. Playing my cards with fate, hoping it was on my side.. and it was.
I may believe in nothing but I do believe in myself and the luck I choose to have, the happiness I allow myself to feel. I can only hope for others to do the same.
Have faith in me.
Read my LJ.
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