and you're not really sure what you're doing this for but you need something to fill up the days

I've found the line between good and bad, the white lie, an exception.
I feel no guilt towards it but wish circumstances were different. Although I'm indifferent to the situation, and wish that more had happened (yeah, who thought I'd be here?) I just never thought I'd be on this side.
Oh well, things happen, and what a certain person doesn't know can't hurt them.
Especially when that certain person has treated you like shit.
Good times :).